2009, I hate you. Things just never can go well with you, can they? What IS it about this year that it has been - and continues to be - so miserable?

I've about had it with some people in my life, I'm up to my eyeballs in stress over pretty much every aspect of my life, the house is literally falling apart and we have no money to fix anything and it's getting on my nerves. Sometimes I just wish I could scream at the top of my lungs... I think a good scream might help in getting out all this pent-up frustration. But I can't do that because we have neighbors who would not appreciate the noise. *sigh*

Top off all my frustrations with worry - over how we'll pay the bills, how we will continue to put food on the table, how we'll stay warm this winter, my boyfriend is severely ill and in a lot of pain and has had more than one trip to the ER since Monday and I'm scared to death about that.... why can't this year just be nice to me for a change? =(

I'm going to enter a recipe contest. If nothing else it gives me something to focus on and keep me busy. I've enlisted my sister's help in coming up with some good entries - I can send in more than one entry and darn it I plan to because the way I see it the more I enter the more likely I am to win. My sister wants nothing to do with the taste testing OR the prize should I win, as the recipes must include a specific brand of ice cream that she doesn't like. And the prize is a year's supply of said ice cream. It may not be money but it's good ice cream and I figure the way my life has been going, some free ice cream would be damn nice to indulge in.

Awww hon.... You do need a good scream - and maybe you could just grab a few pillows, hold them close together, and then scream until you feel like you're done screaming. You reap the benefit, and the neighbors don't freak out.

I will send you tons of positive, healing energies, my friend - for you, for your family, and for your boyfriend. I understand the fear you're feeling about his health, hon, I really do.

You're not alone, my friend... I'm here for you...